Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Jesus, be my leader. I am ready to Follow.

"Then Jesus said to his disciples,'If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me. If you hang onto your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it." - Matthew 16:24-25

Well I have officially finished my first semester of nursing school, and I am getting ready to start the second one next week. I feel like I have learned so much in the past few months, and yet I am overwhelmed with the amount that I still need to learn and skills I need to master in order to be a good nurse. If there is one thing that I have learned though that has stuck, and I pray will alway stick, is that I cannot do this job without being desperately dependent on the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is the One who counsels, guides, leads, and gives wisdom and insight into what God is doing around us. The One who helps us do the will of God when we call on Him. I have realized that in a hospital setting, in order to be a giver of hope, a possessor of compassion and love, I need the Holy Spirit. I am totally blind and useless in the spiritual realm without Him (in any situation). He is the one who gives me patience and perserverance to get through each lecture and test. God is the One who gives me breath and energy each day. I am learning how utterly helpless I am without Him. Just like a baby, I need my Father to grow me and lead me.

Health-wise this past semester really couldn't have been any better. Becuase I went on IVs right before starting clincals, I was able to get through the rest of the semester in full health. Thank you Jesus. I just had a doctor's appointment yesterday to see how I am doing before going back to start another semester. My lung function is overall still really good. The only thing that went down were my small airways. I have been feeling my congested lately and have had less energy. My doctor decided to put me on prednisone again for 2 weeks to experiment and see if the cause of the small airway decrease is allergies. If it is, the prednisone should do the trick. So we shall see. I am glad I didn't have to do IVs againthe week before going back, but I am also interested to see how my health will be throughout this coming semester. It has already been about 6 months since I've been on IVs, and normally I go on them about every 6 months. Whatever happens, my God is in charge, and my heart shall trust in Him, He is my refuge.

This semester we are doing an oncology (cancer) rotation at City of Hope. I am nervous and excited for this. Oncology is a field of nursing that I am considering going into, so I'm curious how I will like it. I will let you guys know! :) If you think of it, pray for an open heart, discernment, and wisdom in the way I percieve this rotation. I want to be where God desires me to be. Pray that I would end up there.

I think that's it for now. Thank you so much for reading.
Is there anything that I can be praying for you about?